I've been meaning to blog since Monday yet all I did was open up this blog and stare, refresh, click on other people's blog and doze into blog wonderland. Yeap, that's all I did.

Gosh, why is it so hard for me to write something, or is it showing me a fact that I'm not a person who writes blog? I'm just someone who likes to whine about his life.

geezzz. I don't know what to write.

Let's use the point thingy.

1. I've got a new work desk. It's freakingly big which me likey! The desk is big until the extent that it can fit an old desktop computer on it, by that I mean, a huge monitor and a huge cpu, not to mention the mouse and keyboard.

2. I've not received my salary for the past two month ( starting tomorrow ). There's some issue with Bangkok. They're not giving M'sia office money by saying some crap. I'm looking at it as a way of saving money.

3. I miss a lot stuff, ie, school, band, music.

4. About music, the thing about playing at KLPac is that I don't feel like we're a team, I always feel like I'm just there to play the notes on my scores, and that's it, so it made me realize how good it felt when I was back in school. Being part of something, a big family. ahh. I miss those days.

5. I have not been a good friend.

I just noticed that some friends of mine actually commented on my blog, and I didn't know until today. I'm shocked by the comments. As I only found out that there's a tab on the dashboard page stating comment. geez. I'm sorry. I guess things could've work out differently.

6. I've just downloaded Glee Volume 6, and Lady Gaga's Hair. I actually wanted to download the whole album of Born This Way but I can't find the freaking link. So I gave up, just download the only song that I think has the potential playing on my playlist.

7. I've download Sim3 on my ipod! Yeah me. :D

"NFTB"

Gotta sleep now.

Aiya, after waking up tomorrow, everything's still the same.

"Being a teenager sucks, but accepting one's self seemed to brighten the spectrum."

Read here.

"NFTB"

p/s: I modified the line.

I always like the song For Good, even though I have not watched the classical musical, Wicked.

Gotta watch it soon, but anyway, this song is plainly music. In fact, a very good one.

This is the first version that I've listened.

And there comes the glee version.

Personally, I prefer the Sam Tsui and Nick Pitera version, as there's more harmonious lines than the Glee's version.

But the glee's version of the song is very clean.

P.s: After listening to both versions again, I find that Nick's voice is better with Rachel and Sam's better with Kurt. Hmm. Interesting huh?

"NFTB"

So Pride and Prejudice is like, so..... English.

Whenever I'm reading the dialogs, I have that fake english accent running in my head.

Gotta read more la..

"NFTB"

According to BBC, I've gotta read these books before I die.

So might as well start now.

1. The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott
19. Captain Corelli's Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
22. Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, JK Rowling
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien
26. Tess Of The D'Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice's Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel García Márquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl
36. Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher

51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Süskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl
75. Bridget Jones's Diary, Helen Fielding
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel García Márquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot
100. Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie

I'm currently reading Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen on my ipod.

"NFTB"

READ READ READ READ!

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

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Written by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988), was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony. This was his speech to the graduating class of 2008.
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I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.


Life's A Mess

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.


Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.


Be Hated.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.


Love Another Human Being

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise.Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.
You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

Ok, I know I should be working, but I can't help to be blog hopping.

Reading blogs from this country.

Well, I can't help to feel that, how come the topic that people write are mostly superficial?

I'm not perfect either, but why so?

Has our society made us became what we are today by being superficial and being online 24/7?

I'm facing the online thing as well and I'm trying to overcome it, but it's just so damn hard.

My friend commented that, " People who are born in the 90s are online addicts, they can't stop being online..."

Everything is moving so fast and I feel like I wanna know it all, which kinda think of it, what's the point of knowing it all, it doesn't help one to become something better, you just have something more to talk about when the conversation goes silent. LOL!

Well, I'm trying to overcome that, like seriously.

Anyways, after reading through some blogs, I'm back to the question of my life.

"What do I want in life?"

It has always been this question, why nothing else? Cause I do believe that if you want to become more successful, everything have to be done by yourself, not to mention protecting yourself, backstabbing some bitches (I perhaps?).

And you all know, I'm a guy who doesn't like to set goals.

The goals that I've set didn't exactly work out the way I wanted it to, like for say, my UEC result.

The goal was to score 4As? And where did I end up?

eks.

The main problem is that I'm not well determined enough.

I gave up halfway through the hell like life, which till today I wondered how I went through.

As Andrew said, people really need to set milestones in life.

And so, I'm setting mine now.

I'll try to be a HD/D student, and transfer to Singapore or other countries and live the life that I once dreamed.

So, forecasting my life in Taylor's for my first semester. I guess it would like, mugging in the library, reading readings on the car, or bus or some where.

I want to improve my reading skills and my writing skills.

and, I wanna exercise more, I'm getting fat.

May this work. please?

"NFTB"

Well, she's truly the mother of all monsters.

Not to say that I'm a huge Gaga fan, but you've gotta give it to her.

She has the balls to do a lot of crazy stuff.

New is better, I guess?

"NFTB"

P.s: I do like Born this Way and Edge of Glory.

*put your paws up!*

The Freedom to Love.

"NFTB"

Good morning fellow readers.


Currently, it's


And I'm sitting in Macs sipping my



I think I'm gonna kena coffee virus soon, this has been the 2nd cup of coffee that I've been drinking.

Anyway, boarding in like 2 hours?


May god bless us with a wonderful weather in HK. :)


"NFTB"

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In T minus 13 hours, I'll boarding the flight to HK.

I'm actually excited that it's our first trip to HK, not exactly first trip, but anyway, it's a trip!

I think I packed enough, well, if it's not enough, who am I kidding, we're in HK for crying out loud.

You can simply whip up something for across the street.

LOL, that's what I heard la.

Anyway, my mum stuffed me with $150, and I'm like, what? Don't want la.

What if I lose it, how?

It actually makes me feel slightly more stress than before, well, it's hard to keep track on spending when you're on a trip, but the thing is when you have more money, you tend to spend more. eks. I don't want that to happen.

Anyway, I wanna thank you for making this happen. :)

"NFTB"

KNOCK OFF~~

Ap e son hanmadido adoni

Dwi e son nae-yae ge an johge hae

oi ga ob so

(Hello hello hello ) Na ga-tun nyo jan choum

(Eulo eulo eulo) Bon go ga teun dae wae

Na lul pa da hani ne ga ho si du-leo hoon goni

Got-tu-lon (bad girl) sog-u-lon (good girl)

Na lul jal al-ji-do-mo-cham-on-so na gom-o-sub-man-bom-on-so

Han sim han yo-ja-lo-bo-nun noui-si-son-ni-nan no-muna-ug-yeo

Chum chul ten (bad girl) salang un (good girl)

Chum-chu-nun nae-mo-sub-ul-boot-tae-nun nog-sul-noh-cho-go gob-so-nun

Kun-nani son-ga-la-ji-ha-nun=gu wi-seo-ni na-no-muna ug-yeo

e lon o e-leon molimoyang gu-lo

e-lon chum mul chu-nun yeo-janun pon hae

Ni-ga deo pon hae Oh~

(Hello hello hello) Ja sin ob su gun=jeo

(Dwilo dwilo dwilo) Mul=lo-som-yeon dwe-ji

Wae jak-ku to-deu-ni ne=Sog-e-hwon-ni bo=ni-nun gon a-ni

Got-tu-lon (bad girl) sog-u-lon (good girl)

Na lul jal al-ji-do-mo-cham-on-so na gom-o-sub-man-bom-on-so

Han sim han yo-ja-lo-bo-nun noui-si-son-ni-nan no-muna-ug-yeo

Chum chul ten (bad girl) salang un (good girl)

Chum-chu-nun nae-mo-sub-ul-boot-tae-nun nog-sul-noh-cho-go gob-so-nun

Kun-nani son-ga-la-ji-ha-nun=gu wi-seo-ni na-no-muna ug-yeo

(Nal gamdang) Hal su e-nun namjal cha-ayo jin=ja nam=ja lul=cha a=yo

(Malloman) nam=ja da-hun cheo=ga lam=ja mal go

(Nal bul-an) Hae a-ji yah-nul namja non nayo cha sing gami neom-cheo-so

Nae ga=na il-su e-ge ja-yu-lu-ge go-mo-li=so ba=la-bonun

Got-tu-lon (bad girl) sog-u-lon (good girl)

Na lul jal al-ji-do-mo-cham-on-so na gom-o-sub-man-bom-on-so

Han sim han yo-ja-lo-bo-nun noui-si-son-ni-nan no-muna-ug-yeo

Chum chul ten (bad girl) salang un (good girl)

Chum-chu-nun nae-mo-sub-ul-boot-tae-nun nog-sul-noh-cho-go gob-so-nun

Kun-nani son-ga-la-ji-ha-nun=gu wi-seo-ni na-no-muna ug-yeo

"NFTB"

SEXAY~

He is simply sexy.

The song has been stuck in my head for more than 24hours.

Oh gosh. :S

You push me, I don't have the strength to
Resist or control you
So take me down, take me down

You hurt me but do I deserve this?
You make me so nervous
Calm me down, calm me down

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

So come here and never leave this place
Perfection of your face
Slows me down, slows me down

So fall down, I need you to trust me
Go easy, don't rush me
Help me out, why don't you help me out?

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

So you say go, it isn't worth it
And I say no, it isn't perfect
So I stay and still
I'm never gonna leave this bed

Take it, take it all, take all that I have
I'd give it all away just to get you back
And fake it, fake it, I'll take what I can get

Knocking so loud
Can you hear me yet?
Try to stay awake
But you can't forget

Wake you up in the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed

You say go, it isn't worth it
And I say no, it isn't perfect
So I stay and still
I'm never gonna leave this bed

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

"NFTB"

So, the band mode strikes again.

Well, looking back, we, actually sounded really good, comparing what we were back then to some other band that I've been to, I guess, we sounded really good.

I always like woodwinds, our woodwinds to be exact.

The woodwind sounds literally blends together, to something that melts my heart.

Ok, I'm not trying to self praise here, but really, I felt really good while playing together with that bunch of people.

Oh well, the past is the past.

Look forward to the future.

Keep practicing.

As Trevor Wye said, practice is a matter of patients, time and intelligent work!

"NFTB"

p.s: I want to watch our 8th concert again, but I have problem recalling where did I put it.

zzzz.

There goes, the clock strikes 2.

I had a feeling that I might not sleep when I had the first sip of that green tea frap.

I knew, and yet I wanted to drink it. I wanted to taste that bitter sweetness.

Well, it ain't that bad. I'm taking this time to reflect myself.
Reflect on things that I should be thinking rather than just complain about it.


First and fore most. I'm grateful to have such a wonderful person like you in my life.
I like our usual routine, the brunch, the gym routine, the weekly meet ups.
Simplicity, is the thing that I want.
I know that somehow things will come to an end, but for now. I don't care, I would do my best to go as far I can go.
As Adele's song, someone like you says, who would know how bittersweet this would taste.
:)


I should really grow up.
The world is filled with thorny roads ahead, I've gotta be more than what people expects me to be.

Future me, just be sure to not yourself down.




"NFTB"
Anyway, I should attempt to sleep again now as I am starting to feel my stomach growling.


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