I have decided to not practice today.

I can feel my fingers are really tired.

Hope I can get through this stupid audition. 

I have reached a whole new level.

Been lying here since 1am.

Its going to be 5am soon and i am still wide awake.

What the fuck is wrong with me.

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Lying here, trying to sleep.

Yet i am still wide awake.

Letting the guilt eating me inside out.

Lying here, feels like floating.

Uncertainty.

Can anyone save me?

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我真的很笨

笨得连我自己都受不了

我到底要怎么样？

I was the ashore all along.

Can someone please kill me.

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Negativity is as important as positivity.

How would positivity exists without negativity?

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I am such an asshole.

How could i possibly thought it's today when it's not.

Fuck.

:(

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只想听见你的声音

没有为什么

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Happy Chinese new year.

I have never been a cny person.

But anyway.

New year, new beginning.

Twitter shall be banished from my life.

No more complaining.

Aim a flat cgpa for my 2nd semester.

Lastly, just be happy.

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Going through the whole cleaning process of a deserted house is really like shit.

But at least the grandma is happy about it, that's enough.

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是我想太多

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:(How could i take things for granted.

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I really can't take one more sleepless night.

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I don't know how many time i need to remind myself that i don't have to constantly check whatsapp for your message.

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I only know i want you.

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I have stop letting my emotion take over me.

I am stronger than this.

I believe that I'll make it through.

I can't possibly lose any more parts of myself.

Just because I love you, other doesn't mean i have to change myself.

And again, another sleepless night.

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I need to keep everything in my head.

Things in my head, please don't come out and mess with reality.

I shall not become an  idiot checking whatsapp for every 5 seconds waiting for your reply.

Scared of the notification going off.

Why do i have to care anyway?

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Why am i doing this to myself.

Why foes it have to be so hard?

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Read through my blog posts.

What have i became?

What have you became?

You were right.

You said that some day my patient Will run out.

And yes you're right.

I stopped trying to cheer you up when you look sad or down when we meet.

I stopped asking you what's the problem and trying to force it out of you.

I stopped cause i know the answer Will be the same.

I stopped calling you daily.

I don't know why i stopped.

Maybe i am just afraid of getting the same answer over and over again.

And yet, i don't even have the balls to confront you about things that i am unsatisfy with.

With the series of blog posts.

I am apparently a crazy 19 year old who is simply pathetic, doesn't know how to appreciate life,  only know how to complain.

And lastly, i am so damn negative.

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为何如此的难熬

我只想要你的关心

我承认 我真的很嘴贱

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FUCK

FUCCK

FUCCCK

FUCCCCK

FUCCCCCK

FUCCCCCCK

Desperate.

I am seriously going nuts. 

It hurts.

It really does.

I don't know why the pain is so sustainable.

I shall not frown. I repeat.

I shall not frown.

I am deeply sorry.

For the things that I've said.

I can't do anything without you.

Please do forgive me.

This is my blog.

I blog when I am sad, happy or feeling random.

I don't need you to tell me what is right or wrong.

If you find my posts unpleasant, please feel free to stop reading.

I don't need another judgmental reader.

I write how and what I feel on my blog.

The main purpose is for the future me to know better.

It is not to gain sympathy.
I don't need any.


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是我笨 固执 永远学不会

I shall not let tears drop. There's no point.


Gonna sleep away, just go away.






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我不懂你要什么

问你 你又不说

我不是不肯改

根本不知道你要的是什么 要如何改

到底是要怎样？

Walking down this road, knowing that there's no more chance of turning back.

I knew it is going to be like this.


I am just concerned that I am unable to mend things over and over again.

At last, I am the one to blame.


I am really sorry.

Cited

Oh like finally the picture is in the correct size.


Nice kan? :D



"NFTB"

I shall let this disturbing thought slip my mind.

It's only a party invitation.

It may be something I've said, or something I've done.

But anyway, it's not my lost.



"NFTB"
I don't need a lot of party invites, I just need to have a good bunch of friends to have dinner with, that's enough.

NYE2011

Yes, today is the first day of a brand new year, 2012. Well, the Mayans claimed that the whole apocolypse thing will happen in this year, but, like seriously, who cares? If it comes, it comes, what can you really do about it?

So, yeah, went with J and his gang to KKB (Kuala Kubu Bharu). It's this small town located in Selangor, as known for the Selangor dam.

It's more of a photography trip, which I happen to just tag along. :P

It was a bright and sunny day, with a clear blue sky and a slight breeze of wind.

The cute looking trees around the town. :D

This is what I call when photographers attack! hehe. :D
I just found out that the status that I wrote was not posted. OMG. :(
I think I wrote, "They do say that picture tells a thousand words, well, actually I think it's the thousand of pictures taken before the thousand words that counts!"
Something like that. LOL.

Cam whoring. :P

Very nice right? It's so retro. 

My blue+alilpink nike bag with two water canons! 

And the following are the Selangor dam. 

So we went home after the viewing the dam. 

Went to N's place to shower and freshen up then head to dinner.

After dinner went to P's house for games.

So it was first Jenga. Then followed by the omgitssofuntwister!

This is what you call twister-pros! 

So ended up leaving P's place at 4am in the morning.

I should say it's definitely a night to remember. 

Happy 2012! :D

"NFTB"