The wait.
I was sitting there, blindly.
Waiting for you to fetch me.
Well, waiting for 4 hours is not the first.
Thought about a lot of things that I never thought I knew.
It gave me time, space that I needed.
Which I found out that I'm just blindly looking for someone to love.

I thought the stupid little things that I did will come to a result.
But apparently, I'm not good enough for you.


It's very obvious that you're not over your ex.
And I'm like a mad dog barking up the wrong tree.


Maybe this is not meant to be.
Yeah, I kinda agree with it.


I'm feeling damn emo.
Man, I'm such a fucked up kid.
When can I wake up from this bad dream.
Please. Help me.




"NFTB"

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't wanna be alone tonight,
on this planet they called earth.
You don't know about my past and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last.

But what do you say to taking chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge.
Never knowing if there's solid ground below,
or hand to hold, or hell to pay?
What do you say?




Seriously, what do you say?


"NFTB"

YEAH.
I finally shaved myself.
As in, I did it myself.
And I had a cut on my thumb.
How dumb is that. =.=
Anyway, I look much much younger.
That's a good thing right?



So, I seriously need more practice.
And doing so make things much easier.
Cause I'm tired to think that much.



Aiya.
Things will be ok.


"NFTB"
Nights.

When you thought things are going to be alright, and it turned out to be an illusion.
Damn. When am I going to wake up from this bad dream.

Going out and had dinner was like hell.
I was faking all along.
And I didn't know why did I gave you the thing.

Man, I really screw up, big time.

I'm sorry.


"NFTB"

Chinese New Year. How should I put it? It has been quite boring, with all the eating, sleeping and gambling. Seriously, there's no fun at all. Plus, I'm stuck at this small town, there's no place to show my new cloths. Ekks. Save it for KL then. Hehe. On the other hand. The is haunting me again, and I got no idea how to deal with it. It's damn irritating. Because I'm at this no internet town, it gives me TOO MUCH time to think about whatever crap that's on my mind. And I gotta say, I still miss you. Although it has already been sometime, but the feeling's here. Man, this sucks. =[ From the last phone conversation, he seems to be doing alright. So that's a good thing right? He's busy with work, he have a good partner. So that's all I could wish for right? Life's just unfair. "NFTB"

Everything went well today.

Raymond is doing very good.

He's much better than I've had ever expected and his parents are some lovely peeps.

But the atmosphere wasn't that good. Too much thoughts popped up and we didn't know where to start.

And he went for physical therapy, it went well. I think?

And the view of his room is very nice.

The sun shining in, the view.

Nice.

And who said we need DSLRs to take good pictures?

A lousy SE 3.2 mega pixels will do. =)

The so called gathering dinner.

Well, it was ok larh.

If you don't mind the weird combination.

But you can't really complaint about whatever hell that drops in right?

So, BO BIAN. Just stick with it.

And make the best out of it.

Just before I sleep.
I gotta zilian for a while.

This photo was taken last year december.

And the glasses belongs to Mr. Derrick.

Nice right? WAHAHA.

"NFTB"
CNY CNY CNY CNY

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.

Well, for this year.

I see CNY differently.

Because of our Mdm. GF.

CNY is all about the REUNION.

About every family members being together since the long seperations.

CNY is the time where family members forgive each other and move on into the brighter future of tomorrow.

I seriously think that

CNY is like Christmas.

But it's CHINESE version. LOL?

Well, the idea is basically the same right?

Just minus out the firecrakers, angpaos ,etc. Add in the turkey , the xmas tree.

WaLa. There're both equal.

Anyway, the other main point of CNY is the FREAKING HOLIDAY!!!!!!!! WOOTS!!!

I don't ever think I'll blog about CNY.

But I did, weird.

I just felt different this year. That's all.

Oh, by the way. We're going to vist Mr. Raymond tomorrow.

I hope he's doing alright.

It's been a while since I last saw him and REALLY a lot has happened since I last saw him.

So, I hope he'll be happy tomorrow when we visit tomorrow.

"NFTB"

Off to bed.

Today is a good day. =)

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Ohhh Oooh Yeah

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile. 

Today is an OK day after all.

I thought things will be bad for the whole day.

But not really so.

Enjoy dinner with Mr Doug.

He's really a good friend. =)

Off to bed now.

Tired.

"NFTB"

HAPPY CNY?

I'm really tired and sick for this damned country.

Seriously.

Fucked Up. Big time.

=.=

UNI UNI UNI UNI UNI UNI UNI

is all I can think of right now.

'NFTB'