我不明白
成幾何是 我變成了一位完美主義者
為何我會對自己犯下的錯誤如此的不甘願
或許說 明明就不是我的錯
但到最後還是要我來扛
人家一句
＂不懂＂
＂忘了＂
＂怎麼辦？＂
還是一樣 拍拍屁股就走掉
跟本就不用收拾殘局

只能說
幸運的話 就不會被炒
衰的話 就收東西回家吧

我還能怎樣？

就這樣吧



"NFTB"


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I don't know why, I find TaeYang very sexy in this song.

hmmm.

"NFTB"

Ok. Again, I wrote a complaint blog, but I didn't publish it.

Not this time.

"NFTB"

What does this means?

I can't get you off my mind.

I'm worried about you.

I'm worried that you might not be who you are.

I'm worried that you might do silly things that I can't imagine.

I'm worried.

"NFTB"

So that's it huh? I guess you wouldn't even talk to me anymore. The only way that we're communicating now is by throwing bombs on twitter.

To be frank, some times your attitude really makes me unhappy. It's my problem that I don't speak out, I don't speak out because I really thought I was mature enough to handle a relationship with you, and since I'm the one who wanted the relationship, who am I to complain.

T and P's relationship went down the drain after two year's. And the only problem is that T was not happy in his relationship, and so he kinda cheated.
I'm quite sure that if we were to prolong our relationship, I would end up the same way as well, but the thing is that although T cheated, he never love P any less, but at the end, the ended the their relationship.

As A said, it's whether you can proudly to say he's the one. The one that can go through everything with you and etc.
The problem is, I can't, and I'm not capable of going that far.

I've been doing a lot of thinking, I only realized that what's a fling and what's love. My definition about those two were really messed up.
I guess after being alone for some time, when someone nice pops in your life, and I just ended up not thinking anymore.

I used to think that to have a relationship was fated, but the truth is, it's not. Meeting someone that you like a lot on a first date, that's fated, but building a relationship on that kind of feeling is never gonna work. I know, I've tried.


To be frank, all the I don't know how to love someone shits came out because, I felt that whenever I'm trying to make you happy or smile on phone or face to face, you never seemed to be cheered up.


Miscommunication, I guess that's on me.
I've always acted happy when I'm not, cause you're always so hard to guess, you never seems to be happy, or maybe you are happy inside or something.
And so I always assume that you're unhappy and I just acted happy to cheer you up.
I guess that makes me an acting bitch huh?


All the things you've said, I'll always remember them.



Lastly, I do hope that you are alright. As what it seems now, I'm the bitch who you got to knew from Facebook, and so you deleted your account, but anyways, if you don't love yourself more, how are you gonna love someone else?


"NFTB"
P/s: one thing for sure, I really do love you, I just don't know how to handle this right now. I'm naive and things are moving too fast and I'm unable to keep track. And the feelings I have for you wouldn't just vanish in one day or so, so just give me some time.

Do you want me to pay you the iPod back?




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*touch wood*

Have you ever thought of getting hit by a car while you were crossing the road?

When you're on a moving bus, looking outside, and you saw a car driving insanely fast towards your bus, then boom. Like those scene in the movies?

Or you're walking down the street, then sudden you got assassinate, and your fresh blood just spilled on the ground.

On a fine day, you woke up, showered and head downstairs.

When you reached downstairs, one of your family member came up to you and give you a slap.

I actually thought about tons of scenarios that might happen, in movies/real life.

That's for being too bored when you're waiting for the bus, walking to work, walk home after reaching the bus home, walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk.

Walk non stop, kept walking walking walking walking walking and walking.

And yet after today ends, an endless day of walking comes right back in.

When will the walk stop?

I guess the answer is simple.

So, the link between the scenarios that I ran through my head and walking is ?

Hmm.

Oh well.

I'm just complaining here.

"NFTB"

This is normal, yet soothing. :)

"NFTB"

重复

本人 是个很笨的人

很爱重复

很爱 死听一首歌

一直重复 重复到要死了 还在重复

不懂耶

就是一直重复

就每次希望 下个重复会有不一样的东西

不断聆听 不断寻找

或许人生也是一样

不断寻找自己的目标

你重复了吗？

'NFTB'

After being through the past few days.

Talked, laughed, bitched with a lot people.

I'm grateful for everyone that came into my life.

For the every little things that you've ever done.

Thanks.

"NFTB"

Off to dinner.

This is a blog for all the idiots who asked people question and refuses to accept the answer that the person gave you and kept repeating the question over and over again.

First and fore most, you've gotta realize you're an idiot.

Please do, just because I'm working here as a temp staff who picks up the phone non stop even though I am not the receptionist and all the people in this office are like "the phone is ringing but it's none of my business", t (o_o) t

Most of the calls are for these bitches and they don't even pick up the damn phone.

BITCHES!

Secondly, idiot callers.

It's always like this

Caller A: Hi, can I know the price of Double A paper?

Me: erm, You need to speak to our distributors.

C: Can you give me any contact.

M: You can go to our website www.doubleapaper.com.my and check the Distributor List out.

C: I cannot buy directly from you ah?

M: No you can't, you need to speak to our distributors.

Notice anything?

Geez. These people ah, super annoying.

I already told you to contact distributor, and you still can buy directly.

WTF, if you can buy directly, why would I call you to call distributor?

Idiots.

Third.

Foreign callers

C: Hi I'm calling from ..... (somewhere out of malaysia). Can I buy paper from you?

M: You wanna export is it?

C: yes, I wanna export to ..

M: You need to contact thailand, and this is the number ....

C: But I cannot buy directly from you?

Notice anything?

Same case as local callers.

Where are the brain of these people?

But that day there was one really cooperative caller, and he said" thanks for you help. I really appreciate it."

OMG, I was like so happy when I hear this, cause for the past few months working as a temp here, it's the first time I was thanked that way. LOL

Oh well,

work's a bitch.

"NFTB"

*FYI: this is a complaint blog, the write (me) tend to complain about how unfair life can be yet he knows the fact. If you're not interested in reading, please don't.*

So here it goes.

December 2010,

I got an offer from Double A office.

Well, at first I didn't complain much cause the pay is insanely good.

But after a while, all of your school mates are still slacking and you're working your ass off, then I went like "err.. why do I need to work so hard"

Some more, I missed out a lot of HHSB rehearsals.

Although HHSB is no longer good, but the feeling of rehearsing with your mates that have been there for the past 6 years, that makes a lot of difference, no?

February 2011

I went to lion dance, I didn't know what was wrong with me, but the first thought of joining was I wanna experience the lion dance experience that I never had when I was in HH, and secondly, I wanted to earn more cash as I heard from my mates saying that the pay will be good.

So I went.

Well, after going through that hell.

I didn't earn as much as I expected, and it's even lower than my salary working in double a.

At the time when I receive my pay for lion dance, I was stunned knowing the fact that I actually earn less than my normal job, so screw lion dance.

Well, I did went to Singapore with dear, but I ended up falling sick on valentine's.

Geez, see, how unfair can life be.

I shouldn't have gone to lion dance, I should have went back to Johor, and eat all the nice meals and all the pine apple tarts I can eat.

Now

I've been working non stop since last year December, and by now, I have a new aim.

Well, the previous aim was a trip to Taiwan or something else.

But now, it's buying a new flute.

I found the urge to be a better flute player, and I also decided to continue playing the flute.

I mean, as dear said, music's like one of the passion that keeps life going *point taken*

So, I'm currently saving for a flute that's around RM10k?

Actually a RM10k flute is like, 4k+ SGD, so it's actually a pretty normal flute, no?

So, what are my mates doing now?

Hmm. Some are not doing anything, they practically wakes up late, then on facebook, or go out slacking.

Well I don't mind having that kind of life, I mean, who doesn't? Under the current circumstances, I've gotta work. Oh well.

Mates who have started uni.

Well, most of them are either dead busy, trying to figure out their assignment or some other shit, while enjoying the uni campus life.

The others are just partying pretty hard I guess.

Well, the main thing is that they all have pocket money to spend, unlike me.

I don't know how am I gonna survive when I start schooling.

Why is everything related to money.

Xian.

Sometimes, I just wished like the end of the world is like, now or something.

At least, I don't have to think so much into the future.

"NFTB"

I'm a PMS bitch. hehe.

今天心情好，就用华文来写博克。

这个星期 生活过的很充实

只要一得空，就觉得很不自在

会很自然地找一些无关痛痒的事情来填补时间

都不懂是怎样

不明 本人本来是个很懒的人

善变阿 善变

那天再KLPAC练习的时候

Die Fledermaus 这超级无敌快的曲子

我竟然能吹到耶

虽然不是很好 但是至少有样子

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

顿时爽到不得了

结果，

练那首Romance in F Minor 的时候

Sight read 真的是不行

从开头就lost了

结果还被conductor酸

不行啦

要继续加油

"NFTB"