Things are finally back at where they were.

Thank god.

"NFTB"

Please don't leave me.

I guess it's my fault that we're further apart then before.

I really don't know what to do.

:(

I've made the biggest mistake of my life, at least for this 19 years that I'm alive.

I've been eaten up by materialism.

I neglected someone that I because of some bull shit phone bill, which leads to my desire to have the bloody iphone.

Screw the phone, I want you more than I want the bloody phone.

You're way important than that stupid phone.

Money can't buy what we've built. I don't want to put what we did on risk.

I should not have left you when you were in need of me.

I teared, because of my careless behavior.

I'm not trying to make you feel guilty or anything, it's just that I want myself to never ever make this type of mistake anymore.

You're the one that I care about.

"NFTB"
I'm really sorry. :(

First and fore most, I know that I should be sleeping by now, but I can't bare this, I need to write it down.

I want to say that I'm sorry, for being the one stopping our relationship to progress, because of my stupid phone bill, which I don't really know what to do. To me, I know that you're trying very hard to make this relationship work, which it makes me feel worst. I don't know what to do. :S

I only know that I want to love you with all my heart, and hoping that you won't leave me.

I don't wanna go back to before where I didn't have any place to turn to.

"NFTB"

I'm sorry.

I always have the urge to work hard for something that I've seen.

I don't whether it's a good thing or not, but the main idea is that having a life that is being lived to the fullest without any regrets.

I want a bright future.

I wanna earn at least 10k salary a month when I reached 30.

I wanna give the people I love the life that they deserve.

I won't back down.

This is just the beginning.

"NFTB"

and sorry, I know I should be sleeping now, but I always have thoughts at time like this.

I'm really sorry.

In the middle of a humid night, I woke up, feeling frighten, tears started to fill my eyes, I hugged the person beside me, and I found out it was you.

I was scared, but that god you were beside me.

The last thing that I remembered is

me: Don't ever leave me.

then I woke up, it was 7am this morning.

"NFTB"

Dear JC.

I'm grateful to have you in my life as you're always concerned about what's going on with my life,

even the slightest blog post about my random mumblings you would call and ask about what's going on with me.

I wanna thank you, for everything you've done for me.

"NFTB"

I know I should be sleeping already, but I've gotta write this before I sleep.

Thanks.