I'm stressed, like seriously.

I don't know why am I so stressed.

First come the financial issue where I have no where to turn except for you.

Then come the course choosing issue.

I really don't know what to do.

I guess I've to give up what's in front of me in other to satisfy what I want now.

I really hate this.

"NFTB"

I guess I'm really stressed out about this whole phone/finance issue.

Whenever I'm at work, I'll keep on thinking about money.

Damn it, why am I bothered by this?

It's up to a point that I don't even know why do I need to pay for my own phone bill.

Technically I'm still underage, whereby you still need to pay for me.

Now, I need to buy my own cloths, pay my own bills.

Seriously, what the fuck is with that.

I haven't change a new bag for the past 3 years.

I haven't change a new wallet for the past 3 years.

I haven't change a new watch for the past 3 years.

I haven't change a new pair of shoes for the past 2 year, not mentioning the one that got stolen.

What the hell is wrong?

I don't get this at all.

"NFTB"

I've said the things that have been on my mind for quite some time, and finally today I've said it.

I feel good, but my only concern is only hoping that things wouldn't fall apart.

I'm sorry, for being stubborn, for acting in ways that you're really worried about.

I'm sorry, I'll change.

I don't want myself to be a burden to you.

Give me time.

"NFTB"

So what happened for the past 24 hours?

I fell sick, fever, was suffocating from the damn thing, which by the way it was the weirdest fever that I've ever had as it was only JUST fever, nothing else, no cough, no sore throat, no nothing. So that's just weird.

Well, when I was back in school, I would get really hyped up whenever I'm sick, cause I get to skip school. LOL! But now, I'm working for RM100 per day, so if I don't work, no cash, and due to my financial crisis at the moment, I really gotta work my ass off.

I just earned RM50 less today, due to the half day leave.

Why did I fell sick? =.=

Oh well.

Hmm.

"NFTB"

It's a little while more till lunch, and I'm having it with ahem ahem . =P

Well, due to the fact that my house is currently under renovation and NO INTERNET CONNECTION.

I am unable to blog, and I owe me, and some people a few piece of article.

Hopefully I can write them la.

Since I'm gonna receive my first pay by this week, and after chatting with my dear sister regarding to finance issue, where I feel unspeakably stress while talking to her about it, I don't think I can save much on my first pay.

So that's a month longer till getting an iPhone.

I might not get the iPhone4, cause till then the new iPhone might be out already, or gonna be out in a month more, who knows? hehe

Oh well, I'm about to go down now.

Can't wait to see my ahem ahem. =P

"NFTB"

I think I just had the best time I had this year, it beats everything.

It's mostly because two of the subject are actually having the same feelings for each other, that's my assumption la, hopefully it's not wrong.

I do hope things work out, for some reason which I'm not clear of, I have this feeling of I'm actually having a relationship with someone HERE, yes it's finally HERE, which we are taking things at a really slow pace which I'm enjoying every moment of it.

Was surprised by JC's early xmas gift, I was stunned, mentally and physically, and I acted out a lil weird due to the overwhelmed feelings that I was feeling, no I am feeling. I'm still feeling it now. LOL.

Anyway, I guess there's only one thing one my Christmas wishlist this year.

It's quite obvious what it is la, just hope someone grant me that wish eh.

"NFTB"

p.s:

Dear JC, Thanks for everything. =)

I never felt this way in a long time.

From a point, I feel that it's finally here, but yet things are to explore.

I've never done this the slow way, and you're giving me the chance to experience it., which I'm really grateful for.

I had a great time, and I hope you did too.

I can't wait for out next meetup, it should be a blast.

Anyway, I think fate likes to throw something at you when your least expecting something, especially when you thought of things might be the same for the rest of the year but it turns out not, hopefully not.

For that, I am grateful for what has happened to me.

I don't mind if this doesn't work out, but for the time being, I'm just happy.

"NFTB"