Subject: JC

Scene: the exact scene while we were talking in the car.

story:

J: Do you have the intension of kissing me?

L: *shy* huh? what? of course no. *was thinking inside, hell yeah!*

LOL

This is what I dream yesterday. This is damn awkward.

"NFTB"

JC,

I wanna thank you with all my heart for what you did for me.

I'm touched in a way where I have not felt like this before for a long time.

You've enlightened me with what you've done.

Thank you.

"NFTB"

News just in, it's officially that me and my sis's phone had been cut off the credit card auto billing list, and according to my mom, it's my dad's doing, which I highly couldn't find the point of him doing this.

Regardless of whatever crap that he's going through right now, he should be paying for everything as I'm his son, but I highly doubt he thinks that way.

So how am I feeling now? I'm feeling that this person who lives at my mum's house is a really pathetic guy and he just couldn't get out of his misery.

He had a family that cares about him, but he just didn't gave a shit, then cheated on his wife with another lady for almost two years now.

He's now, rotting at home, doing nothing but hogging the single couch in the living room, watching new on the tv and his laptop while playing his stupid bejeweled game, which I highly think that he's listening to any crap that the tv or the laptop says. This is just playing mean.

I don't even know if he's looking for a job.

How hard is it to get a job?

It's whether you wanna lower down your pride and beg others to give you that job, then slowly eat them from within. This is how you do things, not go in an interview bs-ing about how good you are.

Anyway, I've run this through my mind.

One day, after my degree and I've obtain an ok job, this is what I will say.

" eff you, you're the worst dad ever."

"NFTB"

Hmm. I went clubbing.

Well, it's the first time, and the last time for the next few years.

LOL.

It's a really interesting/memorable encounter.

I'll blog about it, I seriously will write a 600 word article about this.

But of course not now, or in this week.

I'm so god damn busy with KLPac that I have not time cut my hair.

Oh well, it's really challenging when everything moves at a fast pace.

Stay tuned, if you wanna know what has happened.

"NFTB"

When you're on the path of self discovery, I guess it's best to not wonder around.

I had been wrong, from the beginning of life, I always thought that life was meant to explore, but see what exploring got me?

I've got nothing except for problems, unwanted thoughts flowing through my brain like oxygen on earth.

So, I should just stick to be being a 18 year old fresh graduate teenager.

Not knowing what the hell is out there, in short terms, act dumb.

"NFTB"

It was written on Peisan's ipod who had been stolen.

This is the story of the boy.
Who came out to his sister and mother.
He thought, of all the people in the world, the so called family members will understand and support what he's going through, but it seems that things aren't what we always expected.

The thing is, he doesn't really gets why when the truth is out, things are worst than when he's lying to their face.

Does losing faith his famliy bothers him?
Yeah, actually it does. He's too dissapointed with all the crap that's going on.
When things got to a certain level, there's no point of letting them understand anymore.
This is how and what they think, and so how can there be an agreement?
For this sickening home of his, he's tired of trying so hard to let they understand.
He's leaving.
From a point, it looks like he's not coming back.

Do they know how he feels?
Do they know what he thinks?
From the begining it's all about them saving their ass.


This is the story of the boy.
Who once thought that family was what we can count on.
But now, things changed.



"NFTB"

Regarding to what I've said about heading to Singapore 7th of Jan next year.

I've began to wonder, whether should I do what I've said.

Well, you asked the question why did I want to go there,

the reasons that I can think of is that I want to spend time with someone who I enjoy talking to, but that person doesn't seems to appreciate what I'm doing here.

Not that I want your full attention, but a message would be nice.

After tons of thinking, I don't think I should go, as I think there'll people out there appreciating my existence.

I guess things are better to left it this way. I have to put a stop to this, I couldn't bare this to grow anymore.

Although there's no one that I know of appreciate my existence, but I'll wait, I'll have faith, hoping for that one day he/she will come in to my life.

Until then, I wouldn't mind being like this for the next 10/20 years?

Anyway, I just can't wait for the payday to come.

I want my iphone 4 so badly.

"NFTB"