I'm so afraid of not being able to sleep at night and it's not funny anymore.
Thoughts, endlessly running through my mind.

I am really afraid.

So afraid that I think sleeping pills is the next option ahead.


NFTB

Of the sound of ice blending, the small talks that people do while tapping on their phones, the people trying to catch a read even the environment is so noisy, the people like me tapping on their laptop as if there's really anything to do on their laptop.

Well, I guess this is what keep me sane, knowing the fact that I'm part of of this world, knowing this makes me feel alive and the loneliness seems to dim away.

I guess when you've been at home, in your own room, looking at the same wall for quite some time, you tend to feel lonely, feel as if there aren't any reasons for you to be alive, as you wake up in noon, have lunch, sit in front of the laptop, watch a movie, drama, manga, play a few rounds of LoL, or DN. In the very end it just gets you down.

Sitting in a crowded Starbucks, did the cheapskate thing of hogging a place to sit with my awesome black sigg bottle, looking at what other people are doing makes me feel happy, I think?

I guess it's the fact that being here in this Starbucks, looking at all these people, thinking that our lives have this overlap that all of us are now sitting in this Starbucks doing what we are doing, this seems kinda awesome, no?

Actually I don't really know what messages am I trying tot convey.
Hands on the keyboard typing while the eyes are looking around at what the other people are doing.
Trying to feel inspired, I think?


And Merry Christmas by the way.
May the end of the world shit come later, like a lot later in life.

"NFTB"
I'm excited for Les Miserable!

Since I'm stuck home on this raining day, so why not do a cover video.

Please mind my sucky singing, I sing for the pure joy of singing, no where near a professional.


Please bear with me. :)


"NFTB"

p.s: I don't know why the video and the sound doesn't sync. hmmm

Hello blog, today I iz in a good mood, hence I am gonna blog with pictures and whatnot. hehe

First, wanna flaunt my new found addiction with Mccafe's coffee. 

They really do serve decent coffee at such a cheap price, I mean it's half of a cup of starbucks. :D

Secondly, wanna welcome a new family of mine, 小牛

This is all thanks to the leng luis below.

Still finding

That's all I can find, damn you school wifi.

Anyway, thank you guys for the lovely gift. I actually love the bag a lot, just that I never thought I'll be receiving anything since my birthday was months ago. LOL.

<3 p="p">

"NFTB"

In the events of today, I would like to conclude that just when you thought things couldn't get any worse from where it was, think again, it could go worse without any prior notice or what so ever.


Just, fuck my life.


"NFTB"
I don't understand why there is such retarded lecturer.

当被自己的挫败 无数的往脸上泼
不管多少次 心里总觉得很不应该

但是不管怎样
成长是要学习如何面对自己所制造的问题

NFTB

Finally finished this freaking assignment.

Most tedious  assignment ever.

Some times I wonder if you're really there for me.

I kept telling myself that you will be there for me.

But when I turn my back, are you really there?

Hmmm

We tend to expect too much from the other party.

Why don't we start expecting things from ourselves instead the next time.

At least, there would not be any disputes when things doesn't go in favour.


"NFTB"