I am seriously fucked.

Been lying here for an hour and I don't feel a tiny bit of tiredness.

Feeling all the emotion rushing through my mind.

1. You're the one that always pushes me towards growth, but have i done anything to you that made you grow? Or have you been standing there all along to just wait for me to catch up. I don't think I can owe you that much. :(

2. I am not good in flute playing.
My grades are so Damn sucky that i have no face to tell people i want to transfer school.

Where did the old me go?
Where did the passion, the will to become better went?

I am so pathetic that the only accomplishment that I am able to get is from playing game.

What are dreams?

What am I still alive?

Someone else might deserve this life more than I do.

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It's rather frustrating to know that everyone you're closed to are leaving and you're like the only few "unlucky" ones to stuck in this god forsaken place.

But who is there to blame? Hmmm.

I still don't understand that why am I feeling frustrated about it.

Maybe I'm still staying home, in this bed room, with no proper table but a small on bed table, and a messy bed that's filled with books and bags and whatever crap.

Why?
I'm just frustrated about a lot of things and yet I'm not doing anything but sitting here complaining.

That's just so me.


Seriously  FML.


"NFTB"

Taking the liberty to blog now, curbing time in a restaurant because of the peak hour.

I don't exactly know what to blog, life's been, well, like that lorh.

Fell sick and came back to life for the past 12 hours.

Later shall head home, eat dinner and sleep.

There's no excitement or what so ever.

On a random note, I am starting to love Brahms Symphony no 1.

Maybe the change of mood gives me a new prospective.

Hmmmmmmm..

Still lazy. I guess that's mostly because I am staying home, where in my mind, it's the place to rest and chill away.

Feel like moving out though.

Haiz.


"NFTB"
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