I finally felt like blogging, I've been avoiding blogging for quite some time.

Well, my CNY was pretty boring, I mean, I kept working non stop since the first day of CNY, because I went for lion dance.

The thing about lion dance is that I found it's really an once in a life time experience, where I don't think I'll ever participate again, or at least that's what I think now. :P

However, I did met some really awesome friends, exposed to another type of culture of vulgarly language that's used in every sentence, and Hokkien as their first language.

I gotta admit that my Hokkien has improved quite a lot within this few "working" days.

Our celebration dinner is this coming Saturday night, we're having seafood, then off to Sing K. hehe

Really do hope I'll be fully recovered by then, being sick sucks.

As you all know I've got a fever on Vday itself, and since then, I'm not recovered yet!

I mean, I've been drinking twice amount of water that I usually consume, and yet my body temperature kept going up and down. It's actually really annoying when your body temperature kept going up and down, I mean, it's like can you just go up, for a long time and come down, then that's all. Up and down is seriously no fun. =.=

Oh well, I think after a while not being part of something, I think my thinking went a lil downhill.

I'm started to act like a kid again, not trying to imply that I was mature before, but somehow, a few blog post are really really immature. I guess, that's when you're not studying, everything just falls apart.

"NFTB"

Just work a while more, I'm going for uni in July.

I teared on V-Day.

For the 1st time in my life, I teared on V-Day.

It's not because of the gift you gave me, it's just that I too touched by your action and felt that I don't deserve the gift.

I'm sorry, that I'm not a good enough partner, but from this moment on, I will give it my 120% to turn things over.

I love you JC.

"NFTB"

Have it ever occurred to you that, why are you working your ass off to earn money, where some other people are just having the time of their life hanging out with friends, with care free mindset.

I really don't know why, why am I doing this to myself.

Why do I need to work?

I don't get it. :S

"NFTB"

I don't know, I wanted to blog more, but I always ended up hopping to other web pages or just stare at this blank page for like 5 minutes, and again, hopping off to other web pages, like facebook or twitter, I guess this makes me the worst blogger ever, no?

I'm just assuming that, but anyway, who's so free to judge me? I mean, like they're like few thousand millions of blogs out there, go judge all you want, I don't even wanna waste my time.

Alright, back to topic.

Well, CNY is here, technically today is the eve already, *damn fast right?*. I'm not feeling any excitement, as there wasn't exactly any excitement to begin with, to me, it's just another holiday, with tons of nice CNY cookies filled with, but this year, I'm no longer following the path of my dad's, I'm going lion dance with my mates. hehe. Well, I always wanted to participate in lion dance in school, but my dad don't approve me of joining, so I ended going back to Johor and eat the hell out of those CNY delicious cookies. LOL!

With all my parent's drama going on, my aunt called, well, she wanted to persuade me into going back for CNY, as it would be the last year of going back to that old kampung house, but to be very frank, I can't stand my dad, but I do love my aunt's, I mean each and everyone of them are always so friendly and hilarious. With us not going back, it kinda proves that my dad is in fact a very lousy dad. hehe.

On the other hand, after coming home from late night mamak yesterday, I realize that sometime things may seems ok in your mind, but after saying it out loud, it's actually not ok, and it's pretty bad. I guess, when you're raised as the way that I'm raised, you no longer need the parent's love and support to guide you through those hard times.

After saying that sentence, I realized that I've no idea what have I became.

I don't know.

The thought of not studying keeps on popping up in my mind, as there're so many problems regarding the matter. aiks.

"NFTB"