So I was sitting at the coffee shop that I used to go during secondary school.

Ordered the fastest food available which was the fried dong fen.

Looking around at the students, the random strangers and the familiar faces that worked there.

I couldn't help it but grinned.

I really couldn't stop grinning, or stop showing that smile on my face.

There were simply too many memories, too many good ones and bad ones.

It's been too long since I felt this way.

Being glued to this current life, the endless due of assignments and tutorial works for god knows what.

The plate of fried dong fen and the cup of teh peng.

I would kill to relive that.

With my mates from band, class, and muffinz.

The purest joy.


"NFTB"

Hi. It's been a long while, I just don't know what mess have I gotten myself into.

I hate the feeling that every week, there are readings to be read, to be understood, summarised, answered and handed in.

I really hate that.

This is currently the 7th week of school and I've never felt so tired before since I got into university.

It's not about the fact that I procrastinate more than actually doing work.

I just don't feel motivated to do any of this shit.


Which leads to my constant anger of with what the hell I'm doing.

I know for a fact that I am capable to complete what I am supposed to, but then I just don't want to.

And I can't find the reason why.

It could be possible that I've been getting lazier since the day I started university, and I ended up where I am right now.

I just don't know what to do.

Weeks after weeks.
Doing the same shit, just trying not to fall back.
Trying to earn marks to get a good grade.

I'm sick and tired of everything here.

"NFTB"

There weren't any mics, you can hear that annoying aircond sound.

Just a lousy cam corder that can't even record HD.

The sound so grand, that almost brought me to tears.

We were only a high school band, with normal instruments.

But the sound, it's simply too beautiful.

I will be forever proud.

Proud of us, we managed to produce such good music.




"NFTB"

How I look at 4am.


I'm again stuck on writing this frigging report.
It's not hard, but then I'm just stuck.


"NFTB"

There are times that I wonder why I don't belong in that particular group of people, or why can't I befriend with that particular type of people.
Am I simply not good enough to be valued by the other party?
Or a lot of reasons more.

Of self hatred and self mocking.

Then I realize that I already have friends that I could count on till I die, why should I be bothered.
I'm a geek that plays music and computer games. Deal with it.

I guess there're times, where you can't help it to be struck by the superficial things in life.

Oh well. All iz well, except for the fact that I'm still not as progressive on my assignment.


"NFTB"

Since I need to start writing my blog style assignment, so thought of starting off with my own, since it has been a while.

Well, life's been okay I guess. Of heading to gym, like reluctantly, of killing assignments one by one, of working part time due to the high wage.

So yeah, that's about it.

and

the thing that keeps me excited, my birthday party! weee.

But there's still a lot to be done.


So, wait till the exams are over then I'll have to do everything within one week, which hopefully is possible.


Anyway, keep calm.



"NFTB"

The people you grow up with, they somehow become a part of your memories.
Like whatever event that you think of, they are always there.
Going through their instagram, is like reminiscing a part of you that you nearly forgotten.

For that, I'm grateful.



"NFTB"
ps: They means the two bitches above and a lot more. <3 p="">