There he sat

In the park there he sat.

Waiting for that someone to walk with him.

Taking chances was all he did.

Things aren't what we always see.

He was alone again on the Christmas Eve.

In the park there he sat.

Thought about everything from the beginning till the very end.

He felt so lonely like he never felt before.

It seems that he was on the edge of breaking down.

But what I saw was the raging fire in his eyes.

The rage that wants to start things over and making it right.

Being alone doesn't mean you're lonely

People assumes that being alone is lonely.

From deep down, it's always deeper than what we see.

Who said lonesome was about the lack of something in our life?

Sometimes, we just need the empty space to let things burn up again.

'NFTB'

Alright, meaning to blog, but just did not have the movement to do so.

So, last week was my birthday huh?

Thoughts of my birthday.

I would rather have a thousand of the normal, "non-birthday" days, than one birthday.

Obviously, it's that lousy, really.

And so this year. Hmmm..

A meal of Klang seafood.

A big birthday card.

And that's it.

People says that it's the thoughts that counts, yeah yeah, I agree.

In the time of economical crisis, like now, we're all sort of cash.

But still, some people gets a Rm300+ head phone.

Who am I to complain.

'NFTB'

Birthday sucks.

Erm Erm Erm.

So, I'm home right now eh?

Hmmm.

To do list.

1) Maths (a)总复 (b)备考

2)Chem

3)Bio

Gosh. I've been really really slacking that much.

Gonna finish everything by today.

I'm not gonna sleep.

"NFTB"

If you're in a position where one steps decides your whole future,

will you take the step that won't make a lot of money but will make you extremely happy and enjoy every minute of it,

or you will take the step that will make more money but you're not really enjoying what you're doing, you're just doing it for the sake of doing it.

What will it be?

I'm in this dilemma right now.

Really really hard to decide what's next for myself.

To sum up my thoughts.

Nothing is easy when it comes to your future, everything depends on your attitude and your determination.

So, if you're gonna put a lot of effort in doing something that will earn money, why not put it in something that you really really like?

Geez.

Obviously I know what I want.

Just try that to tell that to my parents.

@_@

'NFTB'

I'm actually really pissed about you not telling me that you're leaving to London today.

Am I really that unimportant?

or is it I'm so not worth telling?

Phuck.

Xianness.

'NFTB'

Just one thought to sum up the day.

I seriously would want a new flute for my birthday.

That's all I can ask for.

Dreams.

What are dreams?

Is it a thing that only happens after you fall asleep?

Or is it you chase after what happens after you fall asleep?

"NFTB"

What do I want?

Gosh.

I really need to sleep early, but whenever I got home.

It's already time like this.

So what to do?

It's said that when you're really busy, time passes really really quick.

And by quick I really mean quick.

GOSH. I don't even have the time for practicing, and I ended up with lousy sight reading, and got scolded by the oboist. T_T

Then DRAMA DRAMA.

Xianness

For now, I can't wait for the Harmony peeps Photoshoot!

It's gonna be damn awesome.

"NFTB"

Well, the most exciting thing of this week is that I'm too busy, and you did not pop up my mind.

And so, I really can and will move on now.

Good Night.